I've kept it a big ole secret for a little while now - I'm almost 19 weeks along, meaning my whole pregnancy is nearly halfway over! It's been such an exciting journey so far. I wanted to write a post just to document my pregnancy so far, talk about how we are feeling about adding another little life into this world, and discuss our plans for the next few months of our lives.
We first found out I was pregnant in early February - I just started to notice a few strange things that were going on - first of all, no part of me was enjoying coffee. Anyone who knows me probably can agree that this is not a natural thing for me - I'm a coffeeholic - every morning, I usually drink two cups to wake myself up and start the day and then have another cup later in the afternoon. Suddenly, it just never sounded good! I also noticed I just started feeling moody more often, and just feeling kind of sleepy. Just out of curiosity, I took a test, and I had mixed feelings when the second line was extremely faint. I figured that meant that I wasn't pregnant, and I couldn't help but feel a little disappointed. I did a little research and found out that sometimes a faint positive line means that you are extremely early in pregnancy and the progesterone just isn't strong enough yet to really show a positive. I waited about a week and took another test, and we found out that our hunch had been true - I was pregnant! When we found out, we were a little overwhelmed (let's just say we planned to wait until after we had our wedding and were settled in here in California to have another baby!) but we also couldn't help but feel super excited. Chris and I love being parents and we also truly love and trust each other, and we always have the mentality that we can handle anything as long as we work together. Not to mention, we had discussed the fact that we didn't want to wait too long to have another baby so that Ben and his sibling would be close in age. As it turns out, they will be almost exactly two years apart! Ben's second birthday is October 21st, and my due date with baby #2 is October 26th. How crazy is that? We are pretty good at making autumnal babies, apparently!
As far as pregnancy symptoms, this has been a far easier pregnancy than my experience with Ben in my belly. I had no morning sickness throughout the first trimester, which is quite the opposite of my first pregnancy. Aside from being exhausted and a little moody, I've felt mostly just like normal old me. I also had a hard pregnancy emotionally with Ben for a number of reasons - some were hormonal, and some were just situational. Chris and I didn't know what to expect during my first pregnancy, we felt kind of unprepared for the whole thing, and it was just a tough transition. Once I gave birth, everything seemed to fall into place. I don't have any big fears or nervousness about having another baby because of how much I love being a mom already. I'm expecting it to be difficult and tiring, but I'm just more comfortable in my abilities of caring for babies by now!
We are going to our second ultrasound on June 12th to find out if it's a boy or a girl - I'm so curious and so excited to find out! We already have a name picked if the baby is a girl, and I am absolutely in love with this name. I'm not going to give the name away - I might reveal it if we find out the baby is a girl, but I will tell you that it starts with a J :) I'm going to be completely honest and say that a tiny part of me is hoping to have a girl so that we can have a boy and a girl - I would truly love to raise a daughter - but I know that if it is another boy I will be so happy and excited as well.
I think one of the biggest things that I notice about pregnant me is how much I obsess about nesting. I honestly feel like it's a primal trait of being pregnant and expecting a child - I can't stop thinking about how I want to decorate Ben and the baby's room (most of the places we are looking at in the area are two-bedroom - I have certain requirements for where we are going to be living (a backyard with a fence, a safe neighborhood, etc.) but having a three bedroom house isn't one of them. I actually kind of love the idea of them sharing a room when they're little.) and just preparing as much as I can for the baby and constantly thinking about how I want our home to be when the baby comes. It reminds me so much of a mama bird collecting twigs and feathers for her cozy nest - you just can't help but want to create a comfy, fun, and safe home for your children (and yourself!). We are currently in the waiting process to see if we've been accepted as tenants for a tiny, adorable bright teal home near the beach, which has been so exciting and nerve-wracking!
Thank you so much for all of the kind words and support many of you have left on my social media posts announcing the pregnancy - it truly means so much to me to have so many loving people in our lives. All of your words have put a smile on my face and made us all the more excited for our new addition. I will be making a post soon with a pregnancy Q+A as well and I would love to hear anything else you would like to hear about pregnancy! I love writing about it, and sharing my experiences with others.
Megan
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